My dream Christmas would be having my whole family together here at home, including the many children adopted out of the family and also the relatives that have already passed on.

We would all be piled into my Gram's house: my uncles, my aunties, my cousins, and all our children. My Gram and my Uppa would have liked to see all their grandchildren's children.

We would all be there eating a very big Christmas dinner. After we were through eating, we would all help each other clean up and watch each other's children.

When we were through with that, we would all sit around a big, fat, beautifully decorated Christmas tree laughing, talking and watching each

other's kids open their presents. Everyone would be sober and drug-free and having a good time without alcohol or anything else.

After taking pictures of each other's kids and of our families, we would put our kids to sleep. Then we women would stay up talking while the men would be off doing their own things.

The next morning we would all plan activities for us and our kids to do. We would all spend the day together having lots of fun. Then in the evening after resting and taking maqis, we would all go square dancing.